Thursday, 16 July 2026

The Alpha Changes Me

I have completed the 10-weeks of Alpha course which was the first held by my church KingdomCity starting from 3rd May 2026 to last Sunday 5th July 2026. Unbelievable I have shown positive changes in myself throughout the sessions.

The changes included:-

  • Active participating during the group discussion - sharing lots during most of discussions I have never been so active in group discussion.
  • Start writing and sharing my stories and views on Facebook. Also creating awareness on disabilities through Facebook. I had stopped doing them for several years. I just think to record all my sharing on my blog which I left idle for years.
  • I have more confident to write using English. Previously I mostly wrote in Bahasa Malaysia except someone helped with editing. I notice my writing in English has shown improvement. Perhaps my perfectionism or my worries about what people may think about me has been reduced. So far I do not use any AI to help edit my whole writing which I have posted.
  • Start sharing testimony which previously I worried and wondered is the story considered as testimony or not
  • Ideas, topics and stories to be written and shared just come to my mind one by one
  • Joining back our weekly city prayer via zoom, as I stopped joining since I had been admitted, 6 weeks in the psychiatry ward in the middle of last year. It’s because my new medication which is taken at night makes me fall asleep once I take it, and I can't take it late as I might have difficulty waking up early the next morning. (Our weekly prayer has changed into morning since July which is from Monday 8pm to Tuesday 6am, and I have successfully: woke up earlier joining the prayer for the last two weeks)
  • Last month I attended the KingdomCity Global Prayer Night which is held once every 8 weeks. I love attending the two-hours prayer but stopped going since my admission last year due to the medication. Now the medication no longer has power over my participation in the church prayer activity.
  • Do think of giving talks or sharing stories with the specific groups of people especially students in motivating them (hopefully will do it)
  • Do think of giving talks sharing knowledge on the topics related to disabilities with specific group of people in creating an inclusive society. (hopefully will do it)
    *I think this is the society that God wishes we would live in.

Most changes listed above come after I had asked God what else He wants me to do since He still doesn't want to take me home last May (as what I have shared earlier). I would say God has been working in me tremendously since I have joined the Alpha course. My psychologist is happy with my changes and she also has the same thought that God had worked in me, changing me.

Our Alpha course 2nd cycle will start this coming Sunday 19th July 2026. Please take note that this course is not for Christian only, but for everyone, especially those who have questions about life (what is life all about). Don't worry that you would be asked to believe in Jesus. This is your choice as God gives us free will. I learn, and the most important thing is that the Alpha course has changed me a lot which I had never thought about.

Those are interested to join, just Click Here to register.

Tuesday, 7 July 2026

A Prayer Walk

7th June 2026 (Sunday)

After the Alpha session, I sat on the bench at our church foyer, had a rest before going upstair for the Mandarin service which will be started at 3.00p.m.. There were 2 or 3 male members hanging around there chatting about the planned activity either walking, hiking or cycling which would be held one Saturday on the particular date. I did not grasp the exact message, as we usually would share all kind related stuffs from the planning to our own experience or regular activity, our knowledge about how other people do such activity, to our view on such activity, besides the considering factors, when we are talking about something. However, having a walk was sounded nice to me.

I had few experiences of going for a walk either morning walk or evening walk. Just a few which can be counted by fingers. I think just two times in the morning, and it should be less than five times for evening walk for the past 20 years, probably throughout my whole life, except joining the huge event where our CPAP was invited. I had the walks mostly 3-4 years ago when I was staying independently in a nursing home. I went with 2-3 friends. I felt relax when I had the walks especially walking independently by pushing the four-wheels rollator which I bought it in year 2022.


12th June 2026 (Friday)

Pastor Karen sent a reminder message to our Greenhouse’s whatsapp group at 3.31p.m.. She reminded us the Greenhouse students that there was a prayer walk tomorrow, in conjunction of the end of term 2. She encouraged as many of us to join the walk. Oh I see.. the walk would be on the 13th and it is the walk that I had heard earlier from the guys conversation. I thought the walk would be held on the following Saturday. And I had overlooked the first message with poster announcing the walk which posted by Pastor Karen on the 7th June morning.

I looked at the poster. There would be four groups which two in the morning and the other two in the evening. Each would be held at the different locations around Penang Island. Karpal Singh Drive which is the 4th group at 6.00p.m. seem would be suitable for me.

After dinner, I lay down on the bed, resting and thinking whether to join or not. I missed to have a walk. But it would be troubling those would be joining if I come along, as I required assistance here and there. Besides, I did feel lazy to go out too.

As going out for any activity, we are not just required effort in participating the activity itself such walking from the starting point to the end point, or just sit at a cafe having a meal and chatting. It requires effort and of course time for getting ourselves ready to go for the activity, walking from our house or any place to the car, driving to the meeting place and looking for available parking space (if we drive), walking from the car to the meeting point. And it is the same after the activity.

Then I sent whatsapp message to the contact person for the 4th group Joel Chu.

‘Hi Joel, I do think to join the prayer walk. Wish to have a walk outside. I think Karpal Singh drive will be on pavement or flat road. My rollactor walker can become a wheelchair too where I sit and someone push me. I may walk bit or half and half be pushed.

Want to ask you if I can join. I will be okay if you advise me not to join.

You can think about it first, maybe ask others if they can help assist me’

Within 15 minutes, I received Joel’s reply written ‘Hi Chin Chin sure. Would love to have you.’

Yes, yes, I would be going for the walk.


13th June 2025 (Saturday)

In the morning, I looked through the poster again to check the meeting point and time. I googled what the place ‘CBTL’ stands for. Then I searched the place at the Grab apps on my phone.

Around 4.50p.m., I got ready and then booked Grab car. The grab guy drove me until the front of the Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf. I reached there about 5.35p.m.. There were members sitting at the table outside the shop.. I waved and call them as there is very high (I think it’s as high as my knee) kerb to be climbed up to the row of shops. Joel got down the kerb to the roadside, took my rollactor from the driver who had taken out from his car boot, opened, placed and held it for me.

Aunty Siew Lian suggested walking up the roadside until the point where the kerb is lower enough for me to step up. Then we walked back to CBTL. We sat there chatting while waiting other members arrived. If I am not mistaken, we all together were 11 persons and I was told we were the largest group, compared the other 3 groups.

After Joel shared the prayer point and we had the starting prayer, we started walking and praying. We walked together, and they helped me got up and down the kerbs. When the kerb is too high for me to wheel up or wheel down, a member would help take my rollactor up/ down while another two members holding my hand assist me stepped up/down the kerb. They stopped the cars while waiting me walking crossed the road.

As we were required lots stepping up and down kerbs plus there are obstructions along walkway, they decided to have slight changes of our route plan. So we just crossed the main road to the Karpal Singh Drive walkway beside the sea. I did feel sorry as they had to change the initial plan just because of me. Our initial plan was making a big round of the buildings before crossing the main road and continued walking along the long walkway beside the sea. Anyway it was okay.

We all walked and individually praying over the places, over Penang. There were members walked beside me, assisted me whenever needed. There was member took out tissue passing to me as I sweating lots. There were members reminded me to slow down and do not strain myself too much.

After walking for quite long distance, we decided making U-turn and walking up along the walkway. There I decided to stop walking. I turned over the back rest of my rollactor to make it into a pushed-chair. I sat on it and there was another member volunteered herself pushing me. We walked up the walkway at much longer distance than earlier, before we made another U-turn. I asked her several times was she okay pushing me as I worried would it be hard or heavy to push me in this rollator-pushed chair, compare wheelchair. Darren who was walking beside us most of the time did offer to help her. She was okay and instead enjoyed pushing me. She was even thanked me for the opportunity pushing me as she felt sleepy earlier when she was just walking. Few minutes after making the U-turn, she finally gave Darren chance to push me. Wow, Darren pushed me at greater speed. I enjoyed it. Just for a while, then we decided to end our walk as we had walked about one hour. We ended our walk with the closing prayer.

Aunty Siew Lian offered to send me home. Her husband asked us to just wait at where we were, while he went to take his car, He had to make a big round to come pick us. Thanks all of them by letting me joining even through I was not a prayer warrior or even good at prayer.


14 June 2026 (Sunday)

I went to church as usual, be there by 12.30pm. for attending the Alpha course. Before going for the walk, I had trusted myself to be in the church on the Sunday even through I would be tired and my body would be aching after the walk.

As I had walked down the stair after the 3.00pm Mandarin service, I bumped into JJ another church member who is friendly and supportive. He thanked and praised me for joining the walk as I would stir the hearts of many more members to join such prayer. He reframed part of the message that I had sent to Joel which was I would come and if I could not walk, you guys pushed me. What? Really? Asking to join the walk where those were coming had to slow down and also help me, instead of enjoying themselves is an inspiration to others?

I frankly told JJ that my actual motive of joining the walk. He said it was awesome, I know to grab the opportunity to go for a walk. And then he said that is exactly what the community is all about.

“Wait... I really need you guys as a group of people with various skills and knowledge come together helping me for a big big task in the future.” I speak in my heart. I thank for having the KingdomCity community. I feel much relief when I realise of having this community which I believe and hope would be supportive and would able to help me when the time that I am afraid has come.